It’s been two years since we had our last fight. Although it wasn’t one of the most violent ones, it also wasn’t the least. The fear you swept right through me that night I’ll never forget. Panic. Terror. Dread. Those are the things I remember the most. You were very determined to ruin the tranquility I’dContinue reading “Dear Epilepsy…”
Memories of the past three years float around in my mind. As I sort through the trying and sunny times, it’s almost impossible to put all my feelings into words. There is heartache for the loved ones I’ve lost along the way. There is fright and frustration for the storms I’ve had to face. There isContinue reading “Seizure free for one year!!!”
It’s been two years since I last saw my neurosurgeon. Two VERY long years. After my last visit, my doctor had me make my follow-up and MRI appointments in two years because everything was going according to plan. I was off my AEDs and had been seizure free for three years. He just wanted to makeContinue reading “Two years…”
Just in case the title didn’t give it away, today is International Epilepsy Day! What is International Epilepsy Day you might ask? In 2015, the International Bureau for Epilepsy and the International League Against Epilepsy came together to provide a platform for people living with epilepsy to share their stories around the world. Now,Continue reading “International Epilepsy Day”
Twenty-six people living ordinary lives. Some learning to walk for the very first time. Others with wrinkles around their eyes. All filled with dreams waiting to be realized. Then, one of those twenty-six is caught off guard. Their greens turned red. Their ups turned upside down. Their life taken away by a silent, electrical terrorist.Continue reading “Monday Reflections: One in twenty-six”
The atmosphere is but a blank canvas. Color exists only in the form of charcoal grays. I’m standing in the middle of nowhere where the mountains are my only companions. I tip toe across this rocky terrain hoping not to fall through the cracks. In this place, I’m searching for the girl I used toContinue reading “Monday Reflections: Finding Yourself”
After three years, I never thought the monster would awaken. Twenty months ago, what I thought would never happen again did. With the simple passing of time, the tides rose to all-time high, and the storm struck violently once again.
When your thoughts become overcrowded, remember there is a silver lining behind each dark cloud. When the hefty storms leave you feeling like a weeping willow, remember the tempest will leave behind a beautiful rainbow. At times, the world will seem overwhelming. At times, everything will be overbearing. But when you feel like you’re atContinue reading “Monday Reflections: Silver Linings”
I wake up to a sunrise, but inside it feels like a sunset. It’s not the soft, golden kind. It’s more of a melancholy blue. I said I wouldn’t let the monster in my head win, but some days the struggle is just so difficult.
November is epilepsy awareness month. And as the month rolls on, I look at my disorder and see how it has come, gone, returned and evolved in the process. Epilepsy monster, medicines upon medicines never calmed you. After years of toil, I thought surgery would do the trick. For three years, you laid dormant and silent.Continue reading “Let’s all talk about it and raise awareness for National Epilepsy Awareness Month!”