A relapse into hell’s kitchen

How did a three-year streak turn into three-days? How did the renewed independence and freedom disappear with just the change in time? These and so many more questions swirl in my mind, but will I ever find real answers to any of them? Most people never find the underlying cause of their epilepsy. I know IContinue reading “A relapse into hell’s kitchen”

Monday Reflections: Before and After

My life has been split in two. There is the BS period, and I’m not talking about bull s**t. BS is the “Before Surgery” period, and AS is the “After Surgery” period. BS didn’t begin as a child, but rather at the moment I was diagnosed with epilepsy. During this time, I came to accept whatContinue reading “Monday Reflections: Before and After”

Unite and Wear Purple

For the past couple of months, I’ve been preparing myself for the National Walk for Epilepsy in DC. As I made my daily walk the other day, I realized the amount of progress I’ve made since surgery. Fifteen months ago, brain surgery had left my body weak. It was impossible to make it from my bedroom to the livingContinue reading “Unite and Wear Purple”

Purple Day for Epilepsy 2015

Tomorrow is Purple Day – Epilepsy Awareness Day! People around the world are encouraged to wear purple to raise awareness about epilepsy and support those who live with it daily. I’ll be wearing my very best purple. Will you wear it with me, too? For more information about epilepsy and seizures, here are some helpful links.Continue reading “Purple Day for Epilepsy 2015”

Monday Reflections: Almost Empty

For the past year, my neurologist has been weaning me off of my Keppra. Today marks two-weeks since I last took those oblong, white pills. I look at my pillbox to find it’s almost empty. Little plastic boxes aren’t filled to capacity anymore. It’s hard to believe they’re almost gone because I never thought thisContinue reading “Monday Reflections: Almost Empty”

Fine Lines…

I know there is a fine line between what should and shouldn’t be said. While some may take matters seriously, others can find humor in the most unpleasant of circumstances. After I let go of the denial and anger of my diagnosis, I decided to take a step back and view my condition in a more lighthearted way. IfContinue reading “Fine Lines…”

Epilepsy Defeated

The left and the right brain, they didn’t much agree. I had to tell the doctor. It was time for him to intervene. The journey was not pleasant, but neither was it bad. I found strength in my weakness. I found courage I thought I’d never have. I’m grateful for all I’ve been through, ForContinue reading “Epilepsy Defeated”

The Monster Within (Part 1)

I had been running like a predator after a prey for far too long. More sunsets had taken place than I could count, and I could barely recognize myself. I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know where I belonged. I just knew I was tired of going nowhere. It was time to breakContinue reading “The Monster Within (Part 1)”

Monday Reflections: Six Months Seizure Free

  To: My very own Hidden Disorder For the longest time, you controlled me. You held on tightly and wouldn’t let me be. Six months ago today, I made a choice. And I now no longer hear your voice. Our friendly fights are over. There is now a sense of closure. My friendly enemy, it’sContinue reading “Monday Reflections: Six Months Seizure Free”

A Distant and Almost Sweet Memory

The end of normalcy and at the beginning of what felt like the end is where this entry starts. It was two-months after my diagnoses. I was confused and angry. I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. I just knew that life wouldn’t be the same. Looking back at my 20-year-old self, I wishContinue reading “A Distant and Almost Sweet Memory”