Impossible to see, the future is.
– Yoda
Twelve years ago, I was headed to University Medical Center Brackenridge in Austin, Texas to check-in for my first ever EMU (Epilepsy Monitoring Unit) stay. For the next few days, doctors would use video-electroencephalogram (EEG) monitoring technology to monitor my brain activity. The end goal — evaluate my seizures and find the best way to treat them.
Months before that, I was a regular college student. Well, as regular as I could be, I was learning new things, making long-lasting friendships, and enjoying life. I had a plan, and things were going swimmingly.
Then just like that, everything went topsy-turvy! And, I was stuck figuring out how this whole seizure and epilepsy thing would fit into my life.
I had a plan. I was going to break out of my shell. I was going to explore the world around me. Most importantly, I was going to grow up and learn to be independent.
But, as Master Jedi Yoda wisely points out, “Impossible to see, the future is.”
So now, I still make plans, but I don’t break apart when they stray off course. I lost a lot of time doing that, and I will no more.
Life: Crossed Out and Rewritten 