Sometimes there are no words to describe your thoughts because they are a jumbled up mess. Sometimes curve balls get thrown your way, and you can’t dodge them. Sometimes you feel so lost that there is no way of finding your way back. Then, from out of nowhere, there is a tiny ray of light shining through the dark clouds. There is someone out there who makes you feel like you aren’t alone and everything is going to be alright.
When I first started this blog, I wasn’t sure where it would be headed. I knew I wanted to talk about everything and nothing at all. I knew I wanted to share my epilepsy journey. But what it actually is, I’ve just discovered.
In the Fall of 2009, my English professor connected me with a girl about my age who had been diagnosed with epilepsy. While I was just coming to terms with my diagnoses, this girl was at the post-surgery stage of her journey. In a time when I felt everything had been turned upside down, she offered to share her story with me so I could feel better. In a sense, this blog has always been about how she positively impacted my life in a time when I desperately needed it.
She didn’t know who I was, but still offered me solace and kind words. Most importantly, she gave me hope that I would be able to find the rainbow after the storm. This blog is not just about me. It’s about sharing both our stories and how they can give hope to others who are just as lost as we were in the beginning. This blog is dedicated to Clare who guided me through my unexpected path and to everyone who reads my blog and finds hope within my words.
Life is a waterfall.
We might each be in a different part of the current.
We might each be tangled up with what’s underneath.
But water will always be water.
There is no certainty in how forceful it will be.
There is no telling what harsh splashes we might face.
But those ever flowing waters will nonetheless trickle down.
When the winds have taken us too far, we can always turn around.
When the rapids feel overwhelming, there will be a tranquil pool to land on.
Because there is no denying the beautiful rainbows that intertwine.
After all, life is a waterfall.