Monday Reflections: Before and After

My life has been split in two.

There is the BS period, and I’m not talking about bull s**t. BS is the “Before Surgery” period, and AS is the “After Surgery” period.

BS didn’t begin as a child, but rather at the moment I was diagnosed with epilepsy. During this time, I came to accept what was ahead of me and do my best to get better. Of course, this didn’t happen until after all the angry fits and waterfalls. It was in this phase I learned life doesn’t have to end with a diagnosis. The world keeps on turning. The sun continues to shine. I just needed to breathe and continue on.

AS began on Monday, December 09, 2013, the day I underwent brain surgery.

This period has been just as hard. Feeling weak and useless after the operation was trying. Not being able to do things on my own was discouraging, but I made it. I’ve recovered, and I’m seizure free! I’m ready to take the world head on!

Before Surgery and After Surgery is how my life is explained these days, and it’s all right. I wouldn’t want it any other way.

Epilepsy has been a challenge, but it’s taught me one valuable thing. When things are difficult, and I feel I can’t go on, I can prove myself wrong. I can prove to myself how strong I can truly be. Today I reflect on that.